路越难走，我越坚强

friends... i dunno how much i owe them for the comfort of the soul... i guess i can't repay them enough the whole of my life
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played some stupid game @ Kerm's house today n updated each other on life... yeah like wad u say, friends 1 or 2 is really enough
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i'm getting emotional again again

cos of things here n there
new things to review in life,
new challenges to meet,
new things that happen
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oh the CLTs r flying to thai

happy seeing the transverstite!
happy gaying!
happy trip!

oi must enjoy urselves hor this may be the last few times u all can go on trip together sialz
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it's a festive season

don't forget to kiss ur loved ones
don't forget to hug those close to u
don't forget to wish the best for those who were always there when u needed

don't forget to give the warmth admist the chilly weather

alone again tonight
without someone to love
the stars are shining bright
as one more wish goes up

oh i wish i may
n i wish with all my might
for the love i'm dreaming of
and missing in my life

i guess i must be wishing
on someone else's star
seems like someone else keeps getting
what i'm wishing for

why can't i be as lucky
as those other people are
i guess i must be wishing
on someone else's star

brothers n sisters men2

off to LEP camp liao...
really wanna go...
better be good sialz..
good thing is paid $0 for 4 days 3 nite stay at downtown east
shan't complain man
haha

have a happy week hor

the lyrics keep ringing in my mind

why do u ask him prove heaven and earth
to prove his love has worth

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1) love is the most powerful thing in the universe
2) belief in urself

wad kind of show would u get such messages from? winter sonata? money mind?

haha, i got it from STAR WARS... surprised?

after watching Star Wars Episode VI -- The Jedi Returns, i'm convinced tt i'm touched by the show... admist all the flying craft "i shoot u, u shoot me", and all the light sabres "i chop u, u chop me", there lies very touching issues like father-son love, and miracles happens when u believe in urself...

shan't bore u pple with the content, just know it's not a kill, conquer, sinister laugh show!

toys array!

saw the carebears n the transformers at taka!

my sises were tantalised by those cute cute colourful bear... saw one sweet-looking pink bear with rainbow belly... haha reminds me of....

transformers were wah kao! brand new... too new to be relevant to me lor... kaoz my time was "transformers generation 2", now got "transformers amada" n wad "transformers energon"....

all my favourite sport cars transformers becomes funny vehicle that u won't c in this world... only thing is the main characters stays just tt they change their features...

now i can't find my "generation 2"... hai.... there goes my childhood... at least carebears don't change

n to think back... the me then n the me now... only thing is i'm still teo kian wee just tt my features change (like more pimples)... haha n deep inside too... there goes my childhood

but of cos the songs remain
transformers, robots in disguise

carebears count down... 4,3,2,1
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think i've got an hereditary problem from dad --- NEMO (Not Expressing Myself Openly)
really gotta learn to show wad's inside me before chances are gone man... before pple c me as a person i ain't

my first idol for this life... someone's who's song i really can appreciate... not bad sialz... idol from the american idol

CLAY AIKEN

here's his debut... check out the lyrics


Measure of a Man

If one day you discover him
Broken down he's lost everything
No cars, no fancy clothes to make him who he's not
The woman at his side is all that he has got

*Chorus
Why do you ask him move heaven and earth
To prove his love has worth

Would he walk on water
Would he run through fire
Would he stand before you
When it's down to the wire
Would he give his life up
To be all he can

Is that, is that, is that
How you measure a man*

If by chance all he has to give you
Was three words wrapped around your finger
Would that be deep enough at the end of everyday
And how will you ever know if a man is what he says

*Bridge*
He'd never give up
Let go of his dreams
his world goes around
for his one true belief
Is that how you know
Is that what it means

03S61

shi zi lu kou ver 03S61 ended with great success!
hope u pple enjoyed urself!
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it is something we, as humans, cannot live without.... cos we have emotions

it is not something which offset ur balance in life
instead, it is something which helps balance ur life

it is not somewhere u find someone whom u walk ur life for
it is not somewhere u find someone who walks his/her life for u
instead, it is somewhere which u find someone walking with u

it is not somewhere u find someone u appreciate
it is not somewhere u find someone who appreciates u
instead, it is somewhere u find someone who appreciates u, and who appreciates u in return

what could IT be?
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Such a feelin's comin' over me
There is wonder in most everything I see
Not a cloud in the sky
Got the sun in my eyes
And I won't be surprised if it's a dream

Everything I want the world to be
Is now coming true especially for me
And the reason is clear
It's because you are here
You're the nearest thing to heaven that I've seen

I'm on the top of the world lookin'
Down on creation and the only explanation I can find
Is the love that I've found
Ever since you've been around
Your love's put me at the top of the world

Something in the wind has learned my name
And it's tellin' me that things are not the same
In the leaves on the trees
And the touch of the breeze
There's a pleasin' sense of happiness for me

There is only one wish on my mind
When this day is through I hope that I will find
That tomorrow will be
Just the same for you and me
All I need will be mine if you are here

I'm on the top of the world lookin'
Down on creation and the only explanation I can find
Is the love that I've found
Ever since you've been around
Your love's put me at the top of the world

I'm on the top of the world lookin'
Down on creation and the only explanation I can find
Is the love that I've found
Ever since you've been around
Your love's put me at the top of the world

background song dedicated to girl whom i still like......

dun think too much.. xiao4 yi4 ge4 =D
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accidentally deleted my template of the blog... wah spent unneeded time reviving everything back.... beebeebaabeeboo man.... must save the template somewhere sial

tulban.... the world is so unfair... poor denzyl.... do wad u can can liao lah
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sis went back niang2 jia1.... she cooked, we ate, we crapped, we laughed.... now that we seldom have the whole family of 6 being together, i learn to treasure the time spent together

humans... always only treasure after they lose it
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i'm a plant, cos i love the rain
with rain, everything feels fresh
even the mind
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i've been drinking kopi with frens recently at coffee shop and tolking non stop... i think i'm evolving into an uncle... earlier than anyone else
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here's something from a book... damn niao


girls evolve into woman
boys evolve into bigger boys

when girls burp, she'll feel embarrassed
when boys burp, he'll continue with a few more self-created burps


mars vs venus.... haha
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wait a while longer... i've attached a nice piece of music to my blog

dun be turned off by chinese poetry, many simply reflects the innocence of people of the past

here's 2 which express simple frenship (sorry if u cannot read chinese words hor)


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i just brewed a new jar of wine,
heat it up with my red stove.
while the night draw close, and so does the snow,
would u like to spend time drinking together?


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i scoped 2 cups of wine with my little ladle,
i have a new set of bamboo bed which is 6 feet long.
would u like to spend the night chatting,
cos it's cooling by the lake when autumn arrives


my very own interpretations, so got my very own mistakes too
just an outline of the poem

dun u find them very sincere? simple and yet so heart warming....

tt's wad i call frenship
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wah cannot tahan the 2 little kids living just 1 storey below me at the 6 storey... c already wanna go n pinch their faces...

the mei mei, the older one, always goes "gor gor good morning!"... apparently she doesn't noe there's a difference between morning, afternoon and nite

while the didi always goes "door door".... nice pronunciation
then sometimes can hear him cry very pathetically from my house.... "heeeeeeeeeeeeer!!! heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeer!!!!"

n their faces sometimes are overpowdered and under-cleaned... so u c their blur blur faces beneath the patches of powder... looks like those clowns u c in the chinese opera


sometimes u really needa c such innocent beings after a whole day of being with grown ups n growing ups... to bring out the child that's still hiding in u

i found that i like kids

at least they return ur attention most of the time
at least u dun have to learn how to respond to their actions
at least they brings contagious laughter to ur lives
at least u'll never appear lame in their eyes

haha
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u can't find a reason
but u just like to water it
to c it grow day by day

though it never smiled straight at you
instead, gazed at the sun as if u weren't there
the sun goes east, it never turns west

u ask urself y waste the time
u ask urself wad do u get out of planting

flowers don't say "thank you"
neither do they smile at you
they don't even look at you

maybe u're just stupid
maybe u're just numb
tiredness is nothing to u anymore

u continue watering
it continues gazing
life continues

there's many things u can get touched over... how pple treat others, how others treat u

i'm touched today... really
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2nd sis also using "thanks lor"... great! the world around me is getting more appreciative
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ever wondered y black clouds can never be seen on a plane?

cos black clouds doesn't exist, shadows do

it's time to fly to where i can c the light... n i hope i can stay here longer, so that i noe when it is raining but don't get drenched

sometimes i feel... frens have to learn to receive too

this fren of mine... we've been frens for 5 years... but somehow something still seems amiss sometimes... then i realise maybe this is y

most of the time we're together, he's the one doing the talking n sharing.... then everytime i speak he like not listening... haha feels good buthen being frens for so long i din really bother... maybe it's not his choice to give that kind of "not-interested face", but as the speaker u dun feel good lah... dun feel like talking anymore... plus somemore sometimes he just like switch off after u say abit, then goes back to his topic again... haha

everytime u pour to someone, do remember to return by listening to him or her next time... i feel tt's the best return u can offer to tt fren of urs

nextly, in the relationship he's engaged in currently, i strongly feel he's doing more than wad his gf is doin... so much that the disparity seems to great to endure sometimes...

love is an amazing thing really.... whether frens or partners... u dun mind giving as much as possible... but i do think learning to receive is just as important for a healthy relationship... then no one will feel "owing" the other.
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interesting GP tutor mr julian lim kian aun introduce the habit of juggling to our class, n seeing him carry his 20 sets of 3 juggling balls, and teaching us how to juggle keenly, i was only tempted to buy a set from him.... and there on my table lies my 3 juggling balls... gonna practise when free during the hols... very addictive indeed
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Part E

looking forward to the badminton game

Activity: badminton
Venue: Jurong East Sport Hall
Time: 1700 - 1900

Meeting time: 1630
Meeting place: Chinese Garden Mrt

Note: bring $ for dinner and court payments

2nd sis' back! from germany austria italy france


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here's wad she bring back with her


new languague to learn (according to pronunciation, spelling confirm not collect)

German
thank you = dunker shaun
welcome (as in welcome in)/please = bitter

French
yes = we

Italian
good morning = bonjorno
thank you = gra-see-a


and lots of chocolate with a special name of mozart chocolate... sounds musical, taste like miracle

and a cuckoo clock which sends its cute little bird out every hour. the bird will bend down everytime it crows... c already very gei4 yan3... hourly entertainment in the living room, not bad
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she said VENICE is a beeeautiful place... got boats rowing, got picturesque buildings, the whole atmosphere is very "darling i love u" ... she said must go tt place... hmm very good place for honeymoon! shall aim to go there for my future partor

she said when she saw all the intricate glassware over they, it reminded her of the song by yong bang

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looks like venice really rox big time

there they got to know this old lady hotel assistant who only seems to know the word "stay" in english. every morning she'll go to their door n ask "stay? aperapauasdyf?". the 2nd is some italian word probably meaning "leave". funny thing is y she dun bother go learn the english version of "leave" since she already noe "stay" in english. sometimes pple just choose wad they wanna learn



n surprisingly, sis told me Paris is a nice place, but the pple r eeh, erm......WOW. the pple there just refuse to speak english. sis tried some amateur french with the pple there, but apparently too pek chek, n when she gave up n used english, the person said, in ENGLISH "no english, no english!" really not lame.

2nd case is the seller was holding the merchandise in his hands and waiting for them to say thank you. when sis took the merchandise and said "merci", he gave the very at-last-u-said face and made a "hm!".... wart de haal

good thing the guys r handsome n girls r pretty, depending on how much u trust my sis' judgement. so next time really can't find good looking partners, paris could be ur solution

she said french noes how to carry themselves well, even children walks with a strut... cuckodoodledooo



then Germany got the concentration camps, spooky n psychologically gruesome till she dun bear, dun dare to take fotos.

she said the weather was like hell.... no not exactly like hell.... like.... oh like me very leng3.... even the time taken to 1.remove glove 2.shoot with the camera 3. put on glove again was enough to make her hands go numb... wow... if only she's as hairy as a polar bear, then she can take lots of shots at a time... buthen again its no link

she told me abt this castle which is the one u c in walt disney adverts, the one with name "buena vista", then got this shooting star form a semi circle over the castle.... the king then spent dunno how many years to build it, only to stay in it for 100+ days and only to sleep on the bed for 10 days , before he moved to his eternal home... the pple then wanted to overthrow him cos he spent too much $ on building castles, he still had plans for another 2 after the completion of the 1st! but i guess god overthrew him before the civilians did


Austria got the mozart old home, n also Salsburg where all those musical chocolate originated. place of music indeed, even the tidbits are named after musicians
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glad to c her back... mum won't be so lonely then.... me will also have a very nice person to share with at home... without er jie around i really short of 1 more person whom i can share more carefreely with in life... now she's sleeping peacefully with her kaola bear son cuddled in her arms... must have missed home... she called home the other time n cried... the weather, food must have got her homesick... yeap hope she adjust to the jet lack soon... then can bully her again... hehe

To hell with the beloved PW

Now, for some songs....


Build Me Up Buttercup -- The Foundations (but Clay Aiken sang better.... poooooh)

Chorus:
*Why do you build me up (build me up) Buttercup, baby
Just to let me down (let me down) and mess me around
And then worst of all (worst of all) you never call, baby
When you say you will (say you will) but I love you still
I need you (I need you) more than anyone, darlin'
You know that I have from the start
So build me up (build me up) Buttercup, don't break my heart*

"I'll be over at ten", you told me time and again
But you're late, I wait around and then (bah-dah-dah)
I went to the door, I can't take any more
It's not you, you let me down again

(Hey, hey, hey!) Baby, baby, try to find
(Hey, hey, hey!) A little time and I'll make you mine
(Hey, hey, hey!) I'll be home
I'll be beside the phone waiting for you
Ooo-oo-ooo, ooo-oo-ooo

You were my toy but I could be the boy you adore
If you'd just let me know (bah-dah-dah)
Although you're untrue, I'm attracted to you all the more
Why do I need you so

(Hey, hey, hey!) Baby, baby, try to find
(Hey, hey, hey!) A little time and I'll make you mine
(Hey, hey, hey!) I'll be home
I'll be beside the phone waiting for you
Ooo-oo-ooo, ooo-oo-ooo

SONG RECOMMENDATION

To Where You Are --- Josh Groban
for frens who ceased (not cursing anybody lah)

Who can say for certain
Maybe you're still here
I feel you all around me
Your memory so clear

Deep in the stillness
I can hear you speak
You're still an inspiration
Can it be

That you are my forever love
And you are watching over me from up above

Chorus:
*
Fly me up to where you are beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight to see you smile
If only for a while to know you're there
A breath away's not far to where you are*

Are you gently sleeping
Here inside my dreams
And isn't faith believing
All power can not be seen

As my heart holds you
Just one beat away
I cherish all you gave me
Everyday

Cuz you are my forever love
Watching me, from up above
And I believe,that angels breathe
And that love will live on and never leave

I know you're there
A breath away's not far to where you are.

sometimes i just feel i owe u pple so much

thanx brothers

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a man learnt abt a chest of treasure buried on an island

bringing along his digging tools and large supply of food, he set sail to the island n built a little hut.

"I'm gonna dig out the chest sooner or later," he promised himself.

so he went on to dig. first, he tried the plot of land near his hut. no chest. then he tried the area near the pier. no chest either. these 2 plots of land took him one whole day.

"Never mind, I'll try another day. i can always spend a year to dig it out!" he persuaded himself.

so determined he is. day 1... day 2; 1 week... 2 weeks; 1 month... almost 2 months. he dug almost the whole island; he dug fields, he tried the forest,but his efforts seems to go to waste. his food supply was depleting. desolated, he threw the spade on the ground and sobbed. glaring at the sky, he cursed,

"To hell with you! Who says hardwork always pays off?"

as if empathising the man, it started to drizzle

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the sun shone radiantly n the sky is blue. the man loads his luggage n other belongings onto the boat. though he threw his spade the other day, but he din forget to carry it back with him.

when he was a distance away from the island, he turned to look at the island.

he din have any chest on his boat.

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maybe he'll dig it out next time he finds the map of the island.
maybe the winds will uncover the treasure one day.

he's wasted his time n effort on the treasure he din find.

"There's more than the chest on the island to look for. I'll go stick to my job. at least my sweat are rewarded."

he still hopes he'll find the treasure one day, but not when he can't.

he tells himself he'll wait for news of the map. but he's not going to sit n wait. he's got to earn for his own survival.

he gave his spade a thorough wash, and placed it against the door of his barn.

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